Letting go is hard. Being Type A - I think I have all my stuff together - or at least most of it. I like things that way. I like to know where things are - right where I put them. Usually this is well organized, with the exception of my bedroom. It's a mess in there - but I know EXACTLY where to find all of my things. Did you hear all of that? Me, me, me, ME!
Having control, wanting control, holding on to control - it's all about me. And last time I checked, I wasn't God or perfect. Plus, the crazy thing, that doesn't even make me REALLY happy to have everything in order. It might make my life run easier, but does it really satisfy?
When we photograph, I feel like that is really when I lose myself. It's great! I'm not worried about ME - I'm looking after every little detail of the bride. I'm sure it makes her day run a little smoother, but you know what else? It satisfies my heart too. Some of my favorite (LONG) days have been giving my time to volunteer and photograph different events. For the last two years, I have given several days to be a part of The Gospel Coalition. We love what they do and who the stand for. It has been an incredible experience and we look forward to it each year. GIVING and serving has really been what makes us tick.
Making this our job - shouldn't change that. We truly want our couples to get more out of it than what we do. It is THEIR day, not ours. When we are photographing, we know we will be there with the bride and groom more than ANY other single person that day. It's actually remarkable. We love all the little things - fixing the hair, lipstick on the teeth, or the groom's shirt hanging out. Many people walk by without noticing, but for us - we want their day to be PERFECT...for them.
So...as I learn to let go of control, I am learning to trust for much bigger things. What is in my control is soooooo small! But if I really let go, open my hands, and trust God - I am certain HE will do great things - far more than I could ever hope or imagine.
What do you need to let go of today?