I used to be pretty good at creating habits. My OCD and perfectionism didn't really allow for anything less. I tried to do everything and do it all at 200%. I'm not really sure what made that all change, but I started to say no to some things in order to say yes and provide 200% to the other things. It's always a challenge to figure out what to say yes and no to, but I believe it is well worth it.
I'm working on creating a new habit. I was reading earlier today. Reading about fear and worry and anxiety. The author was talking about how fear can become a habit. We get so used to responding to one thing the same way over and over again that before we know it, we are responding without even thinking about it. I think I'm there...and maybe have been for awhile.
And I want to change.
We probably all have other emotions tied to joy. So why not make that a habit? I look at all those little faces that visit Disney World for the first time. The joy in their eyes says it all. But why? Have they ever been? Do they have fond memories of riding Dumbo the Flying Elephant a million times? Probably not...especially if this is their first time visiting. Then why? They're been trained! They're seen that little castle pop up on movie after movie. They don't think about each detail or their adventure for the day. So, if this is true for them, can't it be true for me? I want to choose joy. I want joy to be the automatic reaction my heart feels before my brain has to stop and think. I need a new habit - and I choose joy.