It's been a crazy year for us. We are so fortunate to have incredible friends and family to walk this road with us. We feel incredibly blessed and there is very little we would do differently. This year - especially for me - has been pieces falling all around us. For the most part, we haven't personally gone through hell and high water, but we have watched our friends face it time and time again.
We've watched several friends battle out cancer. Several deal with infertility and miscarriages. We've even walked this heartache with some who have lost a child. Life is not always fair - and yet somehow that little five year old inside of us, wants it to be. Well, I don't really think we want it to be FAIR - we are way too selfish for that. If it were fair, I think we would all experience much more hardship. But because of God and His mercies, we have experiences some incredible graces. Why? Because life isn't fair - we don't get what we deserve. If we look back at how selfish we really are, we deserve very little - but time and time again we are blessed. Most of the time we don't even recognize it.
For over a year now, I've been listening to the song below. There has been an incredible amount of comfort for me in these lyrics. I have listened to it time and time again. In the car I can belt out and let loose, crying out to God, and hearing the words come off my tongue, I start to believe them. I know they are true from God's promises, but why is it so hard to feel in your heart? I've grown anxious, way more than ever before, in the last five weeks. I have played this song beside my bed as I am falling asleep. When I thought our plane was going to come crashing down, this song rang in my ears. When I wake up for no apparent reason and exhaust myself for all the reasons why I am awake, I can peacefully fall back asleep if I rest in this song.
So, no matter what you are going through, know that the Lord is faithful. He finishes what He begins. We may not get it - but He does. He is EVER faithful! Enjoy the song, the words, and thank you Kristian Stanfill for music that gives me great comfort because of the promises of God.
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